Eating Tears
September 28th, 2006
Heidi Bolz
Psalm 44:3,5 My tears have been my food day and night while men say to me all day long, “Where is your God?” Why so downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him my Savior and my God.
Job 29:3 …and by His light I walked through the darkness.
David was feeling really just as Job was. Different problems~same response. Both men had others around them that were not encouraging them in their faith but rather questioning the existence or care of their God. Both men end up trusting in God after expressing despair. Different needs~same response.
When I feel downcast I can easily turn inward rather than looking upward. I know that the sooner I put my mind on things above (Colossians 3:2) the faster my thoughts move away from self-pity to Savior-praise. My needs (not wants) are always met so there is no reason not to hope in God or praise Him. Looking upward, even on a rainy Oregon day, makes the day brighter as I see God’s hand in providing, answering prayer, and orchestrating my day. I have seen the miracle of Romans 8:28. God will take it all and work it together for good. I praise Him for that.